Good Morning! :)
Happy Sabbath! :) I know most of you don't celebrate Sabbath the way I do, but Happy Saturday to you! I hope you have a utterly lovely day! :)
I forgot that I heard this song before, until I heard it on the radio just a few seconds ago, and I think I adore this song! So I figured I would share it with you. :) Because that's just the sorta girl I am. haha.
:)
Oh, the song's called "Get Back Up", and it's by TobyMAC. :)
I guess it just gives me hope, thinking one day I'll be able to beat depression and OCD for good... :) And to know that Jesus is with me for always. :)
Anyway, I have to go to church now, so I'll talk to you all later! :)
Till next time,
Ash the (Reassured) Dreamer
26 June 2010
23 June 2010
Dreams.
I have a love-hate relationship with my dreams for my future.
On one hand, I LOVE that I love my dreams SO much, and I love that they're so awesome, and that I will probably have a lot of them come true one day. :)
On the other hand, I HATE that I have to wait so long for them to come true!!!! :*(
Isn't this little kid positively adorable?! His name is Jonas. Isn't his NAME positively adorable?!
I just looked at his picture today, and he has a GREAT family, with a loving mommy and daddy, and a little brother on the way. So I know he's not going to be a part of the dream I have to adopt about five kids. (Yes, I seriously plan to adopt at least four kids. Hopefully five. I want five kids, and I'm pretty sure I want to adopt them all. haha.) But when I saw him, in all his adorableness, and when his daddy was describing him... Gah, it made me SO anxious for the day when I can adopt my first child. I always wanted a ton of girls, but now I'm so in love with having a little boy, too, and I just want to be able to be a mommy now! :/
I know it's not time, and I know I'll wait... but orphans shouldn't have to wait for me to finish college and get a dependable job. They shouldn't have to wait for anything. They should have a mommy and a daddy.
:*(
Till next time,
Ash the (Frustrated) Dreamer
On one hand, I LOVE that I love my dreams SO much, and I love that they're so awesome, and that I will probably have a lot of them come true one day. :)
On the other hand, I HATE that I have to wait so long for them to come true!!!! :*(
Isn't this little kid positively adorable?! His name is Jonas. Isn't his NAME positively adorable?!
I just looked at his picture today, and he has a GREAT family, with a loving mommy and daddy, and a little brother on the way. So I know he's not going to be a part of the dream I have to adopt about five kids. (Yes, I seriously plan to adopt at least four kids. Hopefully five. I want five kids, and I'm pretty sure I want to adopt them all. haha.) But when I saw him, in all his adorableness, and when his daddy was describing him... Gah, it made me SO anxious for the day when I can adopt my first child. I always wanted a ton of girls, but now I'm so in love with having a little boy, too, and I just want to be able to be a mommy now! :/
I know it's not time, and I know I'll wait... but orphans shouldn't have to wait for me to finish college and get a dependable job. They shouldn't have to wait for anything. They should have a mommy and a daddy.
:*(
Till next time,
Ash the (Frustrated) Dreamer
19 June 2010
in ten years.
Jen from It's a Jen's Life gave me my second blog award a bit over a week ago... It's called the "You're Going Places, Baby!" award. :) And the rules are just to share where I see myself being in 10 years.
And Jen, I REALLY don't know why you gave this to me, because I'm pretty sure this post will go on FOREVER.
hahaha.
But here we go. :)
I want to be a mommy. And I really hope I have at least three children by ten years from now. I'll be thirty-three by then... one would think I could adopt 3 children by then. :) Hopefully two girls and a boy (named Isabelle, Arianne, and Daniel/Caleb? Please? I would love to have a Bella, an Ari, and a Danny/Caleb!), but I'm up to whatever Jesus decides. :) (Of course, after this, I still want two more kids, so I'd have two boys and three girls total, haha.)
I want to have started a knitting ministry. I don't know if it will include more than me or not, but I want to knit lots of scarves and hats and possibly gloves and blankets, and send them all over the world to those that need them, particularly homeless shelters here in America and orphanages in Europe and China (South America and Africa, too, I suppose, but I still can't picture people in Quito, Ecuador, needing scarves, mittens, and hats to keep them warm).
I want to have started some ministry helping orphans. I don't yet know what it is, but I want to stand up for orphans, somehow, and bring more awareness to their needs, and to help them find homes... I'm not sure how to do that, though. haha.
I want to have started traveling across the country with Christian musicians/bands, preaching the Gospel of Jesus. Is it a crazy dream? Of course it is. But that's part of the appeal. haha.
I hopefully will have already spent a year or two in Europe, as a missionary. In an orphanage, teaching English, ministering through a church, preaching, I don't care. I just really want to be able to go.
I want to be a foster mom. Yeah, I know. I already have plans to have five children that are either adopted or my own children. But yes, I most definitely do want to have several foster kids on top of that. Am I crazy? You could say that.
haha.
And hopefully, I will have already gotten AT LEAST two of my novels published.
Also, I want to be pretty involved in the Cradle Roll class at my church (for newborns to 4-year-olds), I want to be the most amazing aunt in the world to my brother and sisters' future children, I want to visit my mom and dad every week, I want to sponsor my own Compassion International child (hopefully a very little girlie), continue to give money to help really great causes (Compassion International and Mocha Club and the WordFM are my three favorites!), help out with VBS every summer, be happily married to a very awesome man (I would love it if his name was Daniel, Charles, Micah, Josiah, Joseph, Jack, or Noah... and David would be okay, too... but now I'm just being picky! lol).
I want to be involved in the youth ministry at my church... I want to preach at my church on occasion. I want to be able to still be in contact with some very dear friends of mine right now, and to be able to mentor their future (and current) children in the way of the Lord, I want to be depression free, OCD-free, the best novelist I can be, and ALWAYS dreaming of helping someone else.
Okay... I guess I can see why Jen nominated me for this award. haha. Maybe I dream TOO much. hahahaha.
And I don't even know if I want to be doing all that, but there is SO much I want to do to help the world, and I want the world to know Jesus, and I want to stand up for Him... and I want to rescue lots of hurting people.
PLEASEEEEE let it be so!!!
Okay, I'm supposed to nominate ten people now... but since I don't really follow 10 blogs, even, I don't think... so I'll just nominate a few people. :)
Paige at bp blog;
Amelie at Le Fabuleux Destin d'Amelie
Ashley at .:Curiously Strong:.
And I think that's it.
If you were brave enough to read all that, I applaud you.
haha.
Have a good weekend, everybody! :)
Ash the (Nostalgic) Dreamer
And Jen, I REALLY don't know why you gave this to me, because I'm pretty sure this post will go on FOREVER.
hahaha.
But here we go. :)
I want to be a mommy. And I really hope I have at least three children by ten years from now. I'll be thirty-three by then... one would think I could adopt 3 children by then. :) Hopefully two girls and a boy (named Isabelle, Arianne, and Daniel/Caleb? Please? I would love to have a Bella, an Ari, and a Danny/Caleb!), but I'm up to whatever Jesus decides. :) (Of course, after this, I still want two more kids, so I'd have two boys and three girls total, haha.)
I want to have started a knitting ministry. I don't know if it will include more than me or not, but I want to knit lots of scarves and hats and possibly gloves and blankets, and send them all over the world to those that need them, particularly homeless shelters here in America and orphanages in Europe and China (South America and Africa, too, I suppose, but I still can't picture people in Quito, Ecuador, needing scarves, mittens, and hats to keep them warm).
I want to have started some ministry helping orphans. I don't yet know what it is, but I want to stand up for orphans, somehow, and bring more awareness to their needs, and to help them find homes... I'm not sure how to do that, though. haha.
I want to have started traveling across the country with Christian musicians/bands, preaching the Gospel of Jesus. Is it a crazy dream? Of course it is. But that's part of the appeal. haha.
I hopefully will have already spent a year or two in Europe, as a missionary. In an orphanage, teaching English, ministering through a church, preaching, I don't care. I just really want to be able to go.
I want to be a foster mom. Yeah, I know. I already have plans to have five children that are either adopted or my own children. But yes, I most definitely do want to have several foster kids on top of that. Am I crazy? You could say that.
haha.
And hopefully, I will have already gotten AT LEAST two of my novels published.
Also, I want to be pretty involved in the Cradle Roll class at my church (for newborns to 4-year-olds), I want to be the most amazing aunt in the world to my brother and sisters' future children, I want to visit my mom and dad every week, I want to sponsor my own Compassion International child (hopefully a very little girlie), continue to give money to help really great causes (Compassion International and Mocha Club and the WordFM are my three favorites!), help out with VBS every summer, be happily married to a very awesome man (I would love it if his name was Daniel, Charles, Micah, Josiah, Joseph, Jack, or Noah... and David would be okay, too... but now I'm just being picky! lol).
I want to be involved in the youth ministry at my church... I want to preach at my church on occasion. I want to be able to still be in contact with some very dear friends of mine right now, and to be able to mentor their future (and current) children in the way of the Lord, I want to be depression free, OCD-free, the best novelist I can be, and ALWAYS dreaming of helping someone else.
Okay... I guess I can see why Jen nominated me for this award. haha. Maybe I dream TOO much. hahahaha.
And I don't even know if I want to be doing all that, but there is SO much I want to do to help the world, and I want the world to know Jesus, and I want to stand up for Him... and I want to rescue lots of hurting people.
PLEASEEEEE let it be so!!!
Okay, I'm supposed to nominate ten people now... but since I don't really follow 10 blogs, even, I don't think... so I'll just nominate a few people. :)
Paige at bp blog;
Amelie at Le Fabuleux Destin d'Amelie
Ashley at .:Curiously Strong:.
And I think that's it.
If you were brave enough to read all that, I applaud you.
haha.
Have a good weekend, everybody! :)
Ash the (Nostalgic) Dreamer
17 June 2010
oh, please... :*(
oh, please, please pray for my nana.
maybe, when i'm not so insanely tired, i'll tell you about her.
but here's the gist of it now: two evenings ago, she fell on the way to walking to supper (she lives with my cousin, his wife, and their two girls), and she fell and broke her hip. when they were doing surgery to fix her broken hip yesterday, they discovered her cancer metastasized from her lungs (where it was nearly two years ago) to somewhere in her leg/pancreas (no one can really give me all the details yet). suffice it to say, if she would have flatlined on the operating table, my dad and his sister signed a do not resuscitate form for her.
:*((((((
i knew this was coming, but i didn't expect it to scare me so much.
please pray for my nana, and my family!
thanks, dears!
i'll talk to you later!
till next time,
ash the (heartbroken) dreamer
maybe, when i'm not so insanely tired, i'll tell you about her.
but here's the gist of it now: two evenings ago, she fell on the way to walking to supper (she lives with my cousin, his wife, and their two girls), and she fell and broke her hip. when they were doing surgery to fix her broken hip yesterday, they discovered her cancer metastasized from her lungs (where it was nearly two years ago) to somewhere in her leg/pancreas (no one can really give me all the details yet). suffice it to say, if she would have flatlined on the operating table, my dad and his sister signed a do not resuscitate form for her.
:*((((((
i knew this was coming, but i didn't expect it to scare me so much.
please pray for my nana, and my family!
thanks, dears!
i'll talk to you later!
till next time,
ash the (heartbroken) dreamer
11 June 2010
Taco Bell and Changing the World...
I spent much of today trying to convince the patrons of the Taco Bell/Long John Silvers' in my county to donate a dollar to help teenagers graduate from high school.
I wonder why the other register people don't get as fired up about it as me.
At first, I didn't care about it terribly much--I mean, it didn't seem nearly as important as the whole "feeding the children" drive we have between October and December... when people all look down at me condescendingly and say, "Oh, no, dear, I can't give today..." or "No, I positively would NOT like to help feed hungry children in Africa..." it makes my blood boil.
Am I the ONLY one?
Most of the others don't even ask, really, anymore. I guess they're tired of getting no all the time, and they're in a hurry. If I wasn't so completely passionate about helping and saving the world, I guess I could understand. But these are PEOPLE. They NEED help. I realize I can't give all the help to every person that will ever need it.
But is it wrong to want 100% of the customers that come into my place of work to say, "Sure, I'll donate a dollar to help an inner-city kid to graduate from high school, be rescued from the influence of gangs, and go on to live a fulfilled and productive life in the future"?
I realize that the program won't even work for every teenager that they try and help. But they're TRYING. Doesn't that mean ANYTHING to middle class America?
Can I just say that middle class America makes my blood boil?
I guess I'm a part of it, even... we all have our little gadgets and our cars and our homes, and we think we have it all together, but we're losing it enough that we can claim an excuse as to why we can't help this cause or that cause. We come from a history of helpfulness and goodness and God and knowing what's right just enough that we know we SHOULD, but we always have a reason why we DON'T. And most of all, "Later" is our favorite word. I can do it later...
I think "later" should be a word that doesn't even exist.
I think later is the worst idea in the whole entire universe.
I think later will ruin us.
I know I can't change everyone, but if every single one of us who CAN do something would actually DO it, then we wouldn't NEED to worry about putting something off any longer--because all the problems would be solved!
And sometimes, I think that middle-class Judeo-Christian America is even worse than middle-class America. "I already donate through my church..."
Every time someone says that to me, I feel like reaching across the counter, slapping them in the face, and saying, "Thank you for that. I'm glad that your church is doing something to help others. But your church isn't helping THIS child stay alive. Your church isn't tutoring THIS teenager to give them a future. So if you can spare a dollar--which I know you can, I can see it RIGHT THERE IN YOUR HAND... Can you PLEASE just give up your selfish little motives and feed a child instead of have another cup of coffee?!"
Ooooh, I HATE Middle-Class America.
So can you do me a favor?
If your local fast food restaurant is helping some cause--even if it isn't backed by your personal theology or religious persuasions--can you PLEASE do me a favor and donate your dollar to help children have a future, or to rescue children from poverty, or to feed a dying child, or whatever other plan this organization is doing to save the world? Thanks.
On the upside, I'm pretty sure I got over $30 in donations to help the teenagers of America. How awesome is that? And that was just me. If I could do that EVERY time I work on register, and if this drive lasts for a month, I could raise about $500 or so. (I don't work a ton, haha.)
It's not hard to change the world.
We just need to try.
So why don't we try?! :*(
Till next time,
Ash the (Sad) Dreamer
I wonder why the other register people don't get as fired up about it as me.
At first, I didn't care about it terribly much--I mean, it didn't seem nearly as important as the whole "feeding the children" drive we have between October and December... when people all look down at me condescendingly and say, "Oh, no, dear, I can't give today..." or "No, I positively would NOT like to help feed hungry children in Africa..." it makes my blood boil.
Am I the ONLY one?
Most of the others don't even ask, really, anymore. I guess they're tired of getting no all the time, and they're in a hurry. If I wasn't so completely passionate about helping and saving the world, I guess I could understand. But these are PEOPLE. They NEED help. I realize I can't give all the help to every person that will ever need it.
But is it wrong to want 100% of the customers that come into my place of work to say, "Sure, I'll donate a dollar to help an inner-city kid to graduate from high school, be rescued from the influence of gangs, and go on to live a fulfilled and productive life in the future"?
I realize that the program won't even work for every teenager that they try and help. But they're TRYING. Doesn't that mean ANYTHING to middle class America?
Can I just say that middle class America makes my blood boil?
I guess I'm a part of it, even... we all have our little gadgets and our cars and our homes, and we think we have it all together, but we're losing it enough that we can claim an excuse as to why we can't help this cause or that cause. We come from a history of helpfulness and goodness and God and knowing what's right just enough that we know we SHOULD, but we always have a reason why we DON'T. And most of all, "Later" is our favorite word. I can do it later...
I think "later" should be a word that doesn't even exist.
I think later is the worst idea in the whole entire universe.
I think later will ruin us.
I know I can't change everyone, but if every single one of us who CAN do something would actually DO it, then we wouldn't NEED to worry about putting something off any longer--because all the problems would be solved!
And sometimes, I think that middle-class Judeo-Christian America is even worse than middle-class America. "I already donate through my church..."
Every time someone says that to me, I feel like reaching across the counter, slapping them in the face, and saying, "Thank you for that. I'm glad that your church is doing something to help others. But your church isn't helping THIS child stay alive. Your church isn't tutoring THIS teenager to give them a future. So if you can spare a dollar--which I know you can, I can see it RIGHT THERE IN YOUR HAND... Can you PLEASE just give up your selfish little motives and feed a child instead of have another cup of coffee?!"
Ooooh, I HATE Middle-Class America.
So can you do me a favor?
If your local fast food restaurant is helping some cause--even if it isn't backed by your personal theology or religious persuasions--can you PLEASE do me a favor and donate your dollar to help children have a future, or to rescue children from poverty, or to feed a dying child, or whatever other plan this organization is doing to save the world? Thanks.
On the upside, I'm pretty sure I got over $30 in donations to help the teenagers of America. How awesome is that? And that was just me. If I could do that EVERY time I work on register, and if this drive lasts for a month, I could raise about $500 or so. (I don't work a ton, haha.)
It's not hard to change the world.
We just need to try.
So why don't we try?! :*(
Till next time,
Ash the (Sad) Dreamer
31 May 2010
The Things That Make Me Cry... :*(
Hey, everybody! It's been a WHILE! But that's okay, because this little video I'm posting is a DOOZY! I don't cry all that often, but man, this had me in tears! I don't know if I mentioned this on here or not, but my little brother (who just turned 20 this month) has announced that he wants to join the military, so it scares me, but makes me SO proud. And just thinking of my brother becoming like these people, and thinking of what they have done for our country... yeah, I'm not gonna lie. It makes me cry.
So I just want to say, on this Memorial Day, thank you. I don't even think that any military people read my blog, but I just want to say it, to know that I HAVE said it.
Thank. You.
Till next time,
Ash the (Teary) Dreamer
So I just want to say, on this Memorial Day, thank you. I don't even think that any military people read my blog, but I just want to say it, to know that I HAVE said it.
Thank. You.
Till next time,
Ash the (Teary) Dreamer
17 May 2010
Hello! Here's my True Wind blog, as promised. :)
I guess I'll start with the prayer tent... this really awesome art teacher whose the wife of one of the pastors who started True Wind, and she makes these AMAZING prayer tents every year. :) She's pretty much a genius. :) I think most of my pictures are of the prayer tent, hehe. :)
Here's a few more pictures of that part. :)
There was a lot of praise and worship, too... this is a really bad picture, I think, but I couldn't get it any clearer... and it is basically dozens of silly teenagers jumping up and down in front of a stage, so I didn't expect TOO much, haha. I tried to get a picture of the band, but it didn't work well at all... and I took a video of one of the songs, but alas, it sounded HORRIBLE. So I gave up on that, too. Sorry! :*(
And I got a video of one of the preachers... he was probably my least favorite, but that's because the other pastor (Pastor Serg) was always my favorite teacher in high school, and the other "pastor" was a year or two older than me, so I could relate to him easier, haha. I tried to upload the video, but it's taking for-EVER, and I am SO tired, so maybe I'll try again tomorrow evening. :*(
I had an okay time... it's not as fun if you don't really have friends to hang out with, so I ended up hanging out with my little sister the whole time. I love Becca to death, but it definitely wasn't as fun as I hoped it would be... :*( But some of the sermons/speeches/etc. were really good, and motivated me in my own life, so I am pretty glad I went. :)
On another note... I got my new car today! I think I mentioned it, but I'm not sure... in January my old car, Lucy, died... and I was very sad, especially since I lost pretty much ALL my independence. It was HORRIBLE. haha. But today I got a new car! And it's the same model as Lucy, except a year newer, I think. And Lucy was black, and this new car is a maroon-ish color. I've been playing around with the idea of naming her Ruby, nn Roo... but now I'm leaning more towards Ella... I think it's so cute... haha. So I'm thinking of naming her either Ella Ruby or Ella Gwendolyn... :) Do you have any fabulous ideas of what to name her? Oh, and I can't name her Violet (my hairbrush), Macy (my cell phone), Lucy (my old car), Evie/Evey/Eva/Rachel (Eva Rachel is the name of my current laptop), Sarah/Sadie/Lacey (the name of my old laptop...), Norah/Evangeline/Donovan (the name of my parents' van--we can't decide which name to call it... I've always called her Norah, but everyone else always says, "NOOOOO..." and my brother wants to name it Van, so i compromised--a name with Van in it--so I said Donovan or Evangeline, but he wants Donovan, and my mom wants a girls' name... so I just call it Norah and forget them. haha), or Elise (the name of my grandmother's car). haha.
So if you have any suggestions, I'm eager to hear them, but I think I'll probably start to call her Ella, and sometimes with the nickname of Elle. I think it suits her, and I loooove it. :)
Oh, here's a picture of her. :)
Till next time,
Ash the (Sleepy) Dreamer.
I guess I'll start with the prayer tent... this really awesome art teacher whose the wife of one of the pastors who started True Wind, and she makes these AMAZING prayer tents every year. :) She's pretty much a genius. :) I think most of my pictures are of the prayer tent, hehe. :)
Here's a few more pictures of that part. :)
There was a lot of praise and worship, too... this is a really bad picture, I think, but I couldn't get it any clearer... and it is basically dozens of silly teenagers jumping up and down in front of a stage, so I didn't expect TOO much, haha. I tried to get a picture of the band, but it didn't work well at all... and I took a video of one of the songs, but alas, it sounded HORRIBLE. So I gave up on that, too. Sorry! :*(
And I got a video of one of the preachers... he was probably my least favorite, but that's because the other pastor (Pastor Serg) was always my favorite teacher in high school, and the other "pastor" was a year or two older than me, so I could relate to him easier, haha. I tried to upload the video, but it's taking for-EVER, and I am SO tired, so maybe I'll try again tomorrow evening. :*(
I had an okay time... it's not as fun if you don't really have friends to hang out with, so I ended up hanging out with my little sister the whole time. I love Becca to death, but it definitely wasn't as fun as I hoped it would be... :*( But some of the sermons/speeches/etc. were really good, and motivated me in my own life, so I am pretty glad I went. :)
On another note... I got my new car today! I think I mentioned it, but I'm not sure... in January my old car, Lucy, died... and I was very sad, especially since I lost pretty much ALL my independence. It was HORRIBLE. haha. But today I got a new car! And it's the same model as Lucy, except a year newer, I think. And Lucy was black, and this new car is a maroon-ish color. I've been playing around with the idea of naming her Ruby, nn Roo... but now I'm leaning more towards Ella... I think it's so cute... haha. So I'm thinking of naming her either Ella Ruby or Ella Gwendolyn... :) Do you have any fabulous ideas of what to name her? Oh, and I can't name her Violet (my hairbrush), Macy (my cell phone), Lucy (my old car), Evie/Evey/Eva/Rachel (Eva Rachel is the name of my current laptop), Sarah/Sadie/Lacey (the name of my old laptop...), Norah/Evangeline/Donovan (the name of my parents' van--we can't decide which name to call it... I've always called her Norah, but everyone else always says, "NOOOOO..." and my brother wants to name it Van, so i compromised--a name with Van in it--so I said Donovan or Evangeline, but he wants Donovan, and my mom wants a girls' name... so I just call it Norah and forget them. haha), or Elise (the name of my grandmother's car). haha.
So if you have any suggestions, I'm eager to hear them, but I think I'll probably start to call her Ella, and sometimes with the nickname of Elle. I think it suits her, and I loooove it. :)
Oh, here's a picture of her. :)
Till next time,
Ash the (Sleepy) Dreamer.
14 May 2010
My Quest... :)
Hey, everybody!
It feels like I haven't blogged in forever, but I might actually have something to blog about at the end of the weekend!
My high school (well, former high school, haha) is hosting this leadership summit that I am going to this weekend... awesome preaching, lots of cool music, games, talent shows, comedy, hanging out with my sister and old high school friends... I hope it will be awesome. :) haha.
I'll try and take a ton of pictures and tell you all about it later!
Love ya!
Till next time,
Ash the (Tired) Dreamer
It feels like I haven't blogged in forever, but I might actually have something to blog about at the end of the weekend!
My high school (well, former high school, haha) is hosting this leadership summit that I am going to this weekend... awesome preaching, lots of cool music, games, talent shows, comedy, hanging out with my sister and old high school friends... I hope it will be awesome. :) haha.
I'll try and take a ton of pictures and tell you all about it later!
Love ya!
Till next time,
Ash the (Tired) Dreamer
08 May 2010
Ben
This is my second cousin, Ben! :)
Isn't he adorable?
I got to play with him for a couple hours, and he's so sweet and adorable! :)
I always knew I wanted girls, and I really still do, but after getting to hang out with Ben for a while and see his silliness and how awesome it is to be around little boys as well as little girls... now I want both! haha.
Gah, children are such great gifts from God. :) And I'm pretty excited for the day when I'll be able to have my own children. :)
Till next time,
Ash the (Happy) Dreamer
01 May 2010
Sick
I don't want to talk long. Seeing that I have to be up in Hamburg (which is like, 30 minutes away from my house) at 9 o'clock in the morning tomorrow, and well, I've been REALLY low on sleep all week...
But it just hit me, a few moments ago, how much I hate this world.
Please go read this.
Sometimes I forget people still grieve long after their grief has been seen by the public's eye. Sometimes I forget how hard it is to lose someone you love. And that sickens me, that I can even forget.
And I heard about a natural disaster happening near Nashville today. I don't even know what it was, but that it happened, and that it threatens lives infuriates me.
I wonder how much righteous anger Jesus goes through each day, thinking about all the injustices faced by the children He loves. He considers every person here on this earth someone He loves. How much pain could that be? How hasn't God died of a broken heart all over again?
Just thinking about one baby boy, not even born yet, who might not live... thinking about Bowen Matthew Hammitt, even though I don't know him, or his family even, makes me want to cry. If Jesus loves one person infinitely more than I ever could, how in the world hasn't He died of a broken heart again?
And why in the world do we have so little compassion?
Till next time,
Ash the (Heartbroken) Dreamer
But it just hit me, a few moments ago, how much I hate this world.
Please go read this.
Sometimes I forget people still grieve long after their grief has been seen by the public's eye. Sometimes I forget how hard it is to lose someone you love. And that sickens me, that I can even forget.
And I heard about a natural disaster happening near Nashville today. I don't even know what it was, but that it happened, and that it threatens lives infuriates me.
I wonder how much righteous anger Jesus goes through each day, thinking about all the injustices faced by the children He loves. He considers every person here on this earth someone He loves. How much pain could that be? How hasn't God died of a broken heart all over again?
Just thinking about one baby boy, not even born yet, who might not live... thinking about Bowen Matthew Hammitt, even though I don't know him, or his family even, makes me want to cry. If Jesus loves one person infinitely more than I ever could, how in the world hasn't He died of a broken heart again?
And why in the world do we have so little compassion?
Till next time,
Ash the (Heartbroken) Dreamer
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