My Musical Blog... :)

Hehe, one of my best cyber-friends, Amelie, recently posted a musical blog, about all her favorite songs. I laughed, I listened, and I was inspired.

So here is my musical blog. :)

You may not love music like I do, but I hope you'll find my tour of the soundtrack of my life somewhat amusing, at least. :)

1. "Falling Slowly" by Glen Hansard.



Don't ask me why I put this one first. Hehe. But this was a song Amelie was considering for her wedding song, and I COMPLETELY fell in love with it! I usually don't listen to music that isn't Christian and isn't from Glee or Disney channel (lol), but I really, really love this sweet love song. :)

2. "The Lost Get Found" by Britt Nicole



I know I already posted this song on here, but I stinkin' LOVE it, and it's my song of the year, so get used to it. Haha. :) I stinkin' love this so much. It's so happy and talks about so much that I value. :)

3. "Sunshine/Halo" by Glee



Gah, I LOVE the show Glee! :) hehe. I'm such a Gleek. :) And this song is sooooo amazing. At least, I think so! :)

4. "Safe" by Phil Wickham



If it's possible to fall in love with someone's voice, I think I've fallen in love with Phil Wickham's. Hehe. It's just so magical and amazing! :) And I love the words, too. :) So hopeful and healing. :)

5. "Dear God" by FM Static



LOVELOVELOVE! Hehe. :) It's just such a real way to approach God--no lies, no disrespect, just longing for truth and life. This is how I want my relationship with God to be--but sometimes, it just doesn't end up this way. :*(

6. "Forgiven" by Sanctus Real



Sanctus Real is my very favorite band, so OF COURSE I had to put one of their songs in here! This is currently my favorite. It's so healing.

7. "What Do I Know of Holy?" by Addison Road



LOVELOVELOVE this one, too! :) Addison Road is sometimes tied for my favorite band with Sanctus Real, and sometimes it's my second favorite. But I LOVE their lyrics, and I love the music, and Jenny Simmons is positively hilarious. :) (BTW, you should check out her blog at www.jennysimmons.com...). Besides, this song makes you THINK! :)

8. "Next Thing Ya Know" by Matthew West



I just love Matthew West to pieces, too! :) Hehe. I love this song, too. Sometimes I wish how powerful the moment is when people choose Jesus. :)

9. "Speaking Louder than Before" by Jeremy Camp



Gah, I LOVE this song, too! :) It just makes me sick that people have the ability to help the world and change it for the better, but they choose not to. I love that this song talks so much about actually DOING something to help. :)

10. "Last Night" by Kristin Chenoweth and the Glee cast...



Hehe, another Glee song. I love this song, for some reason. Not sure why, but I do. :)

Hehe, anyway, it was probably ridiculous, and I just wasted about 75% of my studying time, but it was fun, anyway. :)

Till next time,
Ash the (Amused) Dreamer :)

hallelujah...

wow... i've seen this video before, since phil wickham is my second favorite singer (second to sanctus real... *grin*), but today... today this song resonated so much with me... life's pretty good, but it's been a little depressing lately, and lately (namely, today), i've been wondering what you're supposed to do when you don't feel God, and you feel like you don't know Him anymore, and you feel like you're like any other joe schmo or jane doe, killed by this world.

cuz that's how i've felt lately. alone and killed by this world, full of secularity and emptied of God and goodness, and i feel like i've completely lost sight of who i am. it's not the first time i've lost sight of God, and now i know that not matter how i feel i always have to cling to Him even if i don't understand, but what... what do you do when the world grabs you by the throat and its talons dig into your trachea and slit your throat and you feel the last few breaths seeping out of you, and you have no hope and no strength to fight anymore? what do you do when it takes every effort just to keep breathing, to just sit there and not let go, to grit and grind your teeth and dig in and breathe in and breathe out, when that's all you can do, when praying doesn't seem to work and you don't feel God, and you don't even know WHY??? and you're desperate and you heave in and out and in and out and nothing makes sense and you know there has to be a purpose beyond these heaved breaths, beyond this nothing, but you don't know how to get there and so you heave in and out and try to find something, ANYTHING, to do to make the silence and the pain less obvious and felt, but you know it has to be something worthy of God, since you're supposed to be God's temple and His hands and feet and His breath and His touch and salt and light, but you're so, so, so tired of fighting.

that's how i felt this afternoon between my useless classes, and i just was sick of fighting and sick of this war and sick of being sick... and then, after supper, i sit down in my parents dark room and go on the internet, mainly to do my math homework, and then i find this... this worship anthem written and sung by an un-Christian singer (well, he might have been a Christian, but he wasn't a Christian singer) and covered by dozens of musicians, and sung with such passion from phil wickham, like he knows exactly what i'm talking about in this blog, that someone knows...

maybe all i know tonight is that when i don't feel Jesus, and i don't know what is going on, and i want so much to be who i am to be, but i'm not that person yet, i just have to hold on to Jesus and sing hallelujah. i don't even have to fight. i don't even have to protest, or figure out a battle plan, or figure anything out. i just have to keep believing that even if i never see Jesus' heart again on this earth, if i keep believing that He's for me, and i was created to be with Him and for Him, and if i keep telling people about Him, even if i don't even know if i know Him anymore... i don't have to have it all. i just have to cling to Him. and sing hallelujah... sing hallelujah...